“My heart is in anguish within me.” – Psalm 55:4
‘Lord, sometimes I feel happy, sometimes I feel sad, hurt, and disappointed. Thank you for not rejecting me because I feel.’ (quote by Joan Webb)
Ever feel a complete mixture of emotions? I have, and often! “My insides are turned inside out…I shake with fear, I shudder from head to foot. Who will give me wings, I ask–wings like a dove? Get me out of here on dove wings; I want some peace and quiet. I want a walk in the country, I want a cabin in the woods. I’m desperate for a change from rage and stormy weather” (taken from The Message)
I can totally relate. Sometimes I think a cabin in the woods or a walk in the country will solve my problems or feelings of being overwhelming. And, for a time, it might. There are times when a walk and a get away is just what the mind, body, and soul need. But, there are times, when I need to stay right where I’m at, stand my ground, and deal with the issues coming at me full force.
Those are times when I need to knock on God’s door to his throne and say, “Heh, I cannot do this anymore in my own strength. I give up. Can you help me?” God answers my plea and wonders why I waited so long to ask.