Sometimes I wonder if I ever will grow up. When I repeat the same mistakes over and over again, I begin to doubt my spiritual growth. I realize that maturity is a process, not a one-time event. It takes 52 days to see the harvest from green bean seeds. In the meantime, I need to water and fertilize with proper nutrients and pay attention to the environment. Just like growing green bean seedlings, my faith takes perseverance and patience.
As I read my Bible and learn more of God’s will and way, he speaks contentment and peace to my aching heart.
Dear God, thank you for extending mercy to me when I falter or doubt what’s happening in my life. As your child, I want to please you. I will pray and tell you my heartaches, lay them at the foot of the cross, and not take them up again.
Do you feel defeated as if everyone is against you? I, too, have felt that way. Can you trust God with your whole being? When you do, joy and peace will return to your starved soul.